Wednesday, 08 July 2009
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Introverts Confessional: The Lonely Wanderer
“Countless single women stay home rather than travel alone into the unknown. They not only miss out on being encouraged by others, but also are not exposed to new relationships when they remain at home tied up by cords of fear and feeling sorry for themselves. If a single woman allows the fearful prospect of meeting new people and new challenges to keep her at home, she may find herself bored and lonely while all the time missing many satisfying and fulfilling experiences.” Lady in Waiting, pg. 27
I can totally relate to this for this has been me for so long. You see, almost five years ago I found myself having to start over in a completely new place. Not just any new place, Long Island. Now for a girl who grew up in a little big town, this was quite overwhelming. Add in an introverted personality and a dash of social anxiety and this became a insurmountable task. Instead of jumping in head first, like I had hoped, I became insecure and withdrawn.
Recently though, within the past year or so, I have been slowly working my way out into the world. Sometimes I still struggle with the fear of putting my self out there. Sometimes I still have to force myself to go out rather than stay home where it’s comfortable. It’s an ongoing battle and sometimes it’s hard to tell who’s winning, me or my fear…But I will continue to go out into the world, no matter how uncomfortable I may feel. I only hope that in the end I will gain some rewarding experiences.
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity
Note: Cross posted from A Christ Follower's Musings.
(of cowardice, or craven and cringing and fawning fear),
but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love
and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self control
2 Timothy 1:7
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